Well another post, this time I plan to update on my health since I got more results back on Monday.
( I'm still feeling pointless though. )Since the late winter/early spring I've felt so tired. Like not even just depressed tired. But I've had very little energy, and weak with hand strength & such. I at first just figured it was because I had given-up. I had a lot of stress & painful removals in the spring (and more recently), and I thought that I was so tired because I didn't feel much point with anything anymore. But I asked my doctor for bloodwork because it could also be my anaemia being a jerk. Well the first bloodwork showed my Iron was fine, but my white blood cell count was high. So another test, and one for a stomach ulcer, and no infection was found but the white blood cells were even higher. Waited 2 weeks and another test with again the count was high. I've been tested for mono', and that's been negative. No urinary track infections or flus. So Dr. Yafai thinks it could be a warning for something to develop with my bone marrow, like leukemia. I've got to go for bloodwork every 3 months now, and if the count reaches 20,000 he'll have my marrow tested. I have now had my blood tested 4 times in the past 3 months and on average it has been around 15,000.
I also had to see Dr. Ruddy (an ear's nose & throat specialist with a thick Scottish accent) because of that lump Dr. Saunders found, & I've also been having spells of a tightness in my throat & trouble swallowing. Usually the things I have trouble with are things neither liquid or solid--like soup or milkshakes. I had an endoscopy done, and I fucking hate them. It gave me the creeps because it felt like a long, thin snake was going down my throat. He didn't use anesthetic so I had a sore throat for days after too. He thought it might be my stomach causing some of it so on Thanksgiving weekend I also had to go do a barium X-ray/follow-through which is my least favourite test so far. I had one back in 2006 & couldn't keep the barium down, and this time I had to drink 2 smaller cups (one while standing, and one through a straw while laying down), and then 2 large ones in the waiting area (also take gas crystals to start, so my stomach was inflated). My body seems to reject me drinking it, like my throat wanting to close-off (it has the texture of paint or school glue, and a sweet, chemically taste to go with the paint+glue). So it took me awhile to drink it all. I was getting very angry at my mother going "come on, come on, get this show on the road!" and having a huffy fit while waiting. We also had to wait a long time to even begin because there was a problem with the equipments' generator. Anyway I got it all done, but felt hella nauseous (and kept tasting the barium in my burps). I had pizza but it didn't help, but I did spend the rest of the day at Mattsles, and mostly played "Killer Is Dead". His mother made meatloaf and that at least got rid of the bad taste.
I had a pounding headache when I got back, but I thought it was just the long day (my appointment was at 7:45AM & I got up around 6:00AM), and playing video-games on a big screen television that's also starting to darken with age. I had a bath & ate some French onion soup, took headache pills, and went right to sleep. But I still felt awful the next day. And by the end of it I was having awful intestinal cramps & bright pastel yellow+goldenrod diarrhea. And I couldn't keep much food down, or feel awful after eating. By Sunday I was also sweating profusely. After dinner on Monday I called 811 (Nova Scotia's HealthLink), and the registered nurse thought I might have had a tear somewhere, and the barium leaked into my system. She recommended I go to outpatients immediately. So after being wishy-washy about it for a couple hours, I got my mother to drive me up. I took my laptop & played DMMd for most of the wait. After 4 hours I finally was saw a Dr. Nick [well last name 'Optoff'(sp?) but he wanted to be called Dr. Nick--not sure if he liked "The Simpsons" or not. He was young & blue-eyed with curly blonde hair though. Dressed in the navy blue emergency uniform]. He diagnosed I was having a bad reaction to the barium. So he got a nurse named Paul to put my on IV. I had Gravol (which fucking burned), something like Advil that started with a 'T', lots of saline, & some dialodid(sp?). 2 of those by needles to my hip & the fatty part of my arm. My mom has in the past left me places, and 2 more hours had passed, so though mostly out of it from the Gravol+opioid I got Paul to go check that my mother was still there. She was pissy until she saw that I was on IV. I had to wait even after the 2ND saline because Paul didn't know if Dr. Nick wanted me to stay & have fluids. But it was fine so I got my mom to carry my stuff because I couldn't walk well & we left. I also got my first Hallowe'en Tim Horton's doughnut of the year on the way back. Actually 2, and I ate one when I got back plus a freezer panini sandwich, & a bag of cheese puffs because my stomach was settled so I was ravenous. I sle0t excellently that night. No dreams, or painful feelings beforehand, just the blackness of sleep. I'm mostly over it now, but I've still got a bit of a bruise on my left arm (couldn't find a good vein in my inner elbow, so had it in my wrist, but fuck it bled a lot & I think the Gravol caused more bruising/irritation), and my digestion isn't back to normal yet. Dr. Nick wondered if something could be up with my spleen to cause all the bruising I've been having & all the bleeding at minor things. Feeling around it didn't seem swollen though. But anyway, I'll probably have to have a different contrast medium for an X-ray in the future though.
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You may have missed that I said "
my laptop". Well my accountant Mr. Brian Neville gave me his old work laptop. I named it "R-2E-054" after Clear's original serial number. It's a Sony Vaio from 2010-2011 with Windows 7. He told me years ago I could have his old work computer (the company pays every few years), but the model couldn't easily be wiped so he couldn't give it to me. But he said the next one I could have instead. Well I didn't count on it, but about a month ago Debbie (who works the desk, but isn't a secretary. She has the credentials to sell/file/process insurance, but mostly does secretary work) called me early one morning. She said Brian had left a box for me on his desk, and I could pick it up when I was around. I expected his even older work laptop which he keeps bolted to his office desk to be there, but instead it was he more recent one. It has nicks & such from wear, but he even had all the little twist-ties for the cords still in the box. I started having problems with my Shaglehod so I've been glad to have it (first it was forgetting my settings & failing at recognising my harddrives, then a svchost.exe problem with it using 100% CPU). I've mostly just played DMMd & used Twitter via Janetter though. My ACNL post was made with it though.
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As in my previous post, I got "Animal Crossing: New Leaf" on the 15TH.
( Now on those fears with it & on other things )---
As for my own Hallowe'en events, I've been doing a lot this year since I don't know how my health will be next year, et cetera, et cetera. I went to see the Kentville Pumpkin People (and need to go retake pictures of an inflatable handsom cab outside Greenwood after the pictures corrupted when I Moved instead of Copied with that svchost.exe error and the lag turned my external harddrive off). I have pictures, but I can't get enough of a feeling that it matters to upload them. I did upload some to Twitpic though {
http://twitpic.com/photos/Lady_Noremon }. I've also been eating a lot of Hallowe'en doughs from Tim Horton's. They have Boston cream ones with sprinkles & a sugar print-out circle on them. I've mostly had the bat & black cat ones. My main plan is tonight though where I'm going to a haunted house at the MacDonald museum in Middleton. I have a costume for Clear from "DRAMATICAL Murder" together, but I didn't like how my old Killua wig looked, so I ordered a proper wig and as of yesterday it still hasn't arrived. It may be in the may mail this morning, but the mail doesn't get sorted until 10:30AM-ish. I really was excited to dress-up as Clear for the haunted house, but if the wig isn't there today I guess I'll go without a costume. If it's not there tomorrow I'll have to use the Killua one. I did wash it at least, so it's ready. Most of the costume is stuff I already had, so it isn't all that accurate, but I still am giddy about dressing-up as him. I couldn't afford a Avon S10 gas mask (and when I saw the cheaper i had to go to Halifax so responsibly didn't buy one then), but I did by a clear plastic umbrella. If I knew some near a military depot type store, I'd ask them to look for me. My mom thought she'd take me to Annapolis Royal on the 31ST (they go all out, and I thought since I'm short/young looking I could sneak a bit of trick-or-treating in too), but she couldn't get the day off work, so I guess I'm handing-out candy instead. I hung ghosts out in the chestnut tree yesterday, and have 2 pumpkins to carve today or tomorrow. I don't know what to carve in them :/ I usually design my own patterns.
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Well my ordered wig didn't arrive, so I wore my old Killua one. It didn't look the best, but it was better than nothing. I really enjoyed dressing-up as Clear. I'd actually like to do it more properly someday. The haunted house was kind of stupid & offensive (middle-school students acting like they thought mental patients would). Even the storyteller they had as terrible (I stayed for "The Yellow Ribbon" but then there was one about a man chopping limbs off his family's dog). But there was a lot on the first floor for little kids though, like face paint & macaroni art. I wore a gold opera mask for most of it because there was a bigger crowd than expected, and I didn't want to be recognised (a lot of the bullies I had in school now have kids & I worried they'd be there). I'm glad my mother decided to wait around because I was done with the place before 7:00PM :/ I did like the fake books they had stuck on the museum's gift shop shelves. One was like "How To Easily Train Your Black Cat" which made me think of my Lydie. And they gave me a purple (my favourite colour) glow bracelet at least. Also I seem to have snagged my white boots on something there because I had a hole in them when I got back, so I'm pissed about that too. My first time wearing them (I had to take the price tags off that day ffs), and I got them from Zellers years ago. There was all kinds of stuff in the hallways that brush against people, so I suspect that was what caused it (It looks like a cup hook mark).
Also I forgot that Tuesday I got my 2 pumpkins for jack-o'-lanterns, and while I was waiting for the seller's help (Avery's sells them by the pound up but no more than $5.00), a woman interrupted and snootily pointed at the 2 I had & goes "
I want that one, and that one.". I told her I had already picked them out & was just waiting to pay, so she got right huffy & gave me dirty looks the whole time it took to pay/load them into the car. On Thursday afternoon I carved that Sock's (cute cat) pattern into one, but didn't know what to carve into the 2ND. I then remembered the screenshot of Clear when he punches the brainwashed Morpheus Ribstez members (I didn't want to do another gas mask where I carved 999!Zero last year, but I only had a few minutes before trick-or-treater time). So I went to print it off, but my printer decided to be out of ink. So I freehanded it instead by looking at the image on my 3DS for reference. Luckily since I've been making my own patterns for around 10 years, I know well how much space is needed to maintain integrity, et cetera, et cetera (that probably wasn't explained well). I'll try to get myself pumped enough to make a proper pattern of it someday. I haven't even uploaded my design from last year though.
As can be seen in the next entry, I decorated more, including a "Ghostbusters" singing ghost. That video was taken before I hung my window lights up (the ones I won in elementary school for a pumpkin I carved then), or got the Clear pumpkin set-up. I took pictures after though that I'll try to upload. I didn't get many of myself though. I didn't take the brats out for a walk in the morning as I planned to either, but I did put festive collars on them for an hour-ish. Lydia didn't have a good time this year, unlike last year. She acted very scared the whole evening, and I was even worried she'd have some sort of spell. She just wasn't herself until yesterday (Friday, November 1ST), and was tired all morning. I told her she wasn't a very good black Hallowe'en cat, but I was worried about her. Timid Nicki on the other hand was quite perky (and as can be seen in the next entry, still loves pumpkins). Minnow even ran outside while I was setting-up the Clear pumpkin. And surprised me by running to the vack door to come back in after I said to her that it wasn't a good time at all to escape (Hallowe'en).

I brought stuff in around 9:00PM, and reheated garlic fingers & got ready to watch the 1922 "Nosferatu". I had been drinking diluted perry most of the evening (after having it with supper), and had the rest with it too so got quite contently tipsy. I also ate cookies I had baked the day before (chocolate chip oatmeal with Reece's Pieces in them too). I love in the 1922 retelling that Jonathan kisses a picture of Nina (Mina) while scared in his room (right after the count menaced him by being weird about blood from a cut Jonathan had). I also love in the novel how he makes notes of trivial things to tell Mina, and being the character that types the diaries up she even keeps the notes in it. I dislike consensual/actively seeking each other Dracula/Mina, preferring my loyal light of all lights Mina (the Van Helsing conversation is where Lorrie's 'lights in the darkness' comes from). So it contents me that in the 1922 silent film they take it so far that she breaks the Nosferatu curse. I love Mina. Sure she can be stupid at times (not getting that of course Lucy could be wandering around in just her nightdress without shoes on), and cares too much about what people think. But she is so clever & level-headed. I know some people dislike her "I want to be an excellent wife & help my husband!", but I don't. Anyway, if you can see "Nosferatu" I recommend it. I bought it on DVD off ebay for about $3.00USD XD And just as I finished Tom really surprised me by inviting me to his New Leaf town for pieces of the Spooky set, so I got comfortable again & did. His villagers kept ambushing me (the Hallowe'en event was on in HoleTown, but I'd set my Nintendo 3DS clock back so Frampton's hadn't begun yet). I ended-up running from them from place to place like from monsters. Limburgh(sp?) & Teddy still changed part of my outfit into the patchwork set though. My lovely cute outfit :( (white lily, purple glasses, beaded top, black formal skirt, black stockings, & black tasselled loafers). I did buy a princess dress & other cute things in HoleTown though. I still haven't done the Hallowe'en event in Frampton though. Too tired Thursday, hopped-up on muscle relaxants Friday, so may get to today. I'm not feeling the game enough to really go out of my way, so :/

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( I also finally did the Hallowmas & Liberation Of Night events )---
Lastly I guess I'll ramble about the findings with Dr. Saunders. The X-rays showed that the bone may not connect right, but is inmgood shape & not worn down/deteriorated as I feared. She also found that my sternocleidomastoid & masseter muscles are hella tight, like she compared the neck ones to guitar or cello strings made of meat. She doesn't know if the tightness is caused my the jaw irritation or the tightness causes the increased irritation. But any way she put me on a soft food diet (which I've mostly been following, except for chewy bread/crust, and notice when I don't follow it. Like I had something sticky earlier in the week and felt how much my muscles hurt when I used my tongue to get it off my teeth), and wrote me a referral for massage therapy to try to loosen the muscles. She also recommended a bite plate to try, but at $1,200+ dollars for something that might not help and isn't covered by my insurance, I'm going to pass on it--I don't want one anyway. If massage therapy doesn't work she has that I should talk with Dr. Saxon about injections for pain & also Botox to help the muscles. I'm also to stay on my Vimovo for inflammation. She doesn't think surgery should be thought of until I've tried a lot of other things, so we'll see. The surgery would be to break & align my jaw how it should be in the left socket. But it'd also be $10,000-ish & hella painful with other risks. At least the instances where I'd lose hearing & be unable to eat have been fewer now. Dr. Saunders also felt something like a cyst in my neck where I've been having trouble, but Dr. Ruddy doesn't think it needs treatment as it is.
I also got my knee brace ordered from Sole's Provider, but haven't gone to pick it up (because I'm waiting for a refund from SunLife so I'll have the funds). I also finally broke-down and got lenses of my new prescription put in my old spare frames. I haven't been able to find eyeglass frames I like, so at least I liks my spares & only wore them a few times. My right eye (my 'good' eye, my left has an astigmatism. I'm also nearsighted) has gotten worse since my last examination & I have had trouble reading books in this dark old house, so now I can see better. I had my last pair of eyeglasses since 2007 (but had examinations after that, though the prescriptions expired due to me not finding frames). I still need to get the nose piece replaced with something like my old pair though, as this is a bit too tall & I see it out of the corner of my eye and think my glasses are dirty/I've got Kleenex snagged in it.
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Oh and we had a rain & wind storm Thursday & Friday so I doubt I'll get to go to that corn maze this year because it's probably been flattened/ruined by said storm.
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I've uploaded some pictures & linked to the PhotoBucket album in the next post after this.