*le sigh*

[ladynoremon]

Yep told June about Matt.

It still scares the hell out of me that someone I've known for so long can just decided one day that I'm crap. It makes me worry about all my other relationships future and present. My freidnships and stuff.

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I slept past my alarm this Morning. Woke-up when my 2nd class would be starting. Art History has podcasts though so I can catch-up easy-peasy. Canadian History however....

Going to school in a few minutes. Need to do somethings;

-remember to bring my note for last Thursday,
-bring tool-box,
-bring camera,
-check my mail,
-go to the library,
-print-off Armadei's picture she drew me,
-get re-shown how to log-in to the NEOS system,
-get "Sketchbook for the Artist" ordered in, [can't be ordered from the UoA library, has to be ordered from the local one]
-go to the bookstore,
-buy a Pentel colour wheel,
-several sheets of black charcoal paper,
-buy a 2-pack of white compressed charkoal (yes with a 'k'),
-browse-through a new copy of "Sketchbook for the Artist",
-get some ideas for journal entries from it (possibly snap a few secret pictures >.>),
-go to Visual Fundamentals,
-work on my '90 Shades of Yellow' assignment,
-finish yellow and start on '90 Shades of Red',
-take some pictures of textures around the school after-class,
-come home and wash dishes,
-clean my desk-off,\
-inflate my bed more,
-make my bed,
-put-away my laundry,
-start cleaning my floor,
-vacuum my rug/sweep my floor,
-get to bed early so I can get up at 7:00

Comments

[lilmagegurl808.livejournal.com]

I don't think it was a "one day" type of decision. I am not saying that he was right, I am just saying I don't think he made that choice in one day. He might have been thinking about it for weeks, months, even years... who really knows, unless we ask him and he is not around to tell us.

Sure it hurts. It is bound to hurt. I don't agree with him on his choice, or decision, and how he handled it was definitely wrong. But I think that should more or less tell you what type of guy he is. He will always have relationship problems as he cannot work through then enough to share what he is feeling about it.

Shrug him off, you don't need him. There are better men out there who will care and love you. Just be patient.

[lady-noremon.livejournal.com]

I can't ask him though.

I know the day before we were fine and were talking about what we would do when I was over next, and then I get there and he like completely ignored me until I cornered him to ask him why he was acting that way.

He wasn't just my boyfriend though. He was my best-friend since grade 2 and we only started dating in late high-school. He was the closest person to me, and that's also why I'm scared.

I still want him in my life some, I don't want to just be shoved-off without any explanation besides that I'm no longer good enough. I've known him for over 12-years.

I'm also slightly scared it is me and that the same thing will happen the next time I'm with someone. It's really shaken me up on everything.

[lilmagegurl808.livejournal.com]

Well, anything could have happened in the week that you were apart....and hey, you will find someone, if you think positive. I know that is what everyone says, but if youstart thinking "I will never find anyone" then it really will happen. I am sure that you will find someone, just enjoy life as it rolls. OK.