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So, Saturday night I was setting-up my S Planner on my S5. I'm trying to get used to it as I'm used to my RAZR. Anyway since I have my Google account on it it synced my Google Calendars. Which is alright as I'm subscribed to a Canadian holidays one. But I learned Mother’s Day isn't on it so I went to the website to subscribe to an American one. While there I noticed the old RP records calendar was in my list. I quickly just mass set it to read only then hid it from my list. ( I felt productive, like I was stopping something before it started. )
In February I posted several places & stated previously that any contact from that group even through other people was unwanted [Kylee, Gil, & Sarah]. But again my setting a boundary didn't matter (I hate the 'we can contact you all we want despite your stating not to, but if we even get an automated e-mail it's harassment'). I have been doing so much better too. After the statistics hits finally stopped I felt safer (though 5 yesterday is 'acceptable' given the automated e-mail), and have been doing better at socialisation. It is so unnerving with someone who hates you reading everything you say. I was just thinking the past week how it was finally starting to feel less like an overhanging weight. I'm in a new job program and have been feeling optimistic with it. The one assigned to me actually seems to care. I have an interview with the one there that deals in job placement this or next week. I'm even working on my driver’s licence. I shouldn't have to be dealing with this crap & fear.
I’ve tried to not fall into going offline & withdrawing, but feeling so sick to my stomach & exhausted hasn't helped that bravery. Ace Attorney crack, tweeting with virt, and the Dragon Ask Box did help some though. And the fact that April 19TH is my babygirl’s birthday. Pretty much that I had a new tent for her was the reason I even got out of bed. But anyway, if I'm not around much or at all besides Queue, then that’s why. I give-up. I am so exhausted.
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{ http://moby.to/ptn8fr } A screenshot of one of the edited comment e-mail notifications.
In February I posted several places & stated previously that any contact from that group even through other people was unwanted [Kylee, Gil, & Sarah]. But again my setting a boundary didn't matter (I hate the 'we can contact you all we want despite your stating not to, but if we even get an automated e-mail it's harassment'). I have been doing so much better too. After the statistics hits finally stopped I felt safer (though 5 yesterday is 'acceptable' given the automated e-mail), and have been doing better at socialisation. It is so unnerving with someone who hates you reading everything you say. I was just thinking the past week how it was finally starting to feel less like an overhanging weight. I'm in a new job program and have been feeling optimistic with it. The one assigned to me actually seems to care. I have an interview with the one there that deals in job placement this or next week. I'm even working on my driver’s licence. I shouldn't have to be dealing with this crap & fear.
I’ve tried to not fall into going offline & withdrawing, but feeling so sick to my stomach & exhausted hasn't helped that bravery. Ace Attorney crack, tweeting with virt, and the Dragon Ask Box did help some though. And the fact that April 19TH is my babygirl’s birthday. Pretty much that I had a new tent for her was the reason I even got out of bed. But anyway, if I'm not around much or at all besides Queue, then that’s why. I give-up. I am so exhausted.
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{ http://moby.to/ptn8fr } A screenshot of one of the edited comment e-mail notifications.
